Cup Of Suffering & Cup Of Honor.The Choice Is Ours - Last-Memories.com
Over the last few years of being unfairly kept apart,again,Marty and I had alot to come to grips with.Resentment,hate,anger,bitterness,unforgivness,then self denial of our own sins,brokeness and to a place of repentance,by the Lords souvergn grace and mercy. We'd been brought back together,after years separated but we,were still not married,even though we had stopped living "in sin",we still appeared to be.Oh we had the wedding plans all going,veil,even rings and started pre-mariage/counseling.We tried so hard to take care of eachother and survive.No matter how much we loved eachother,we couldn't make things work,if the foundation wasn't solid,In Christ. Both of us disabled and needing more help then eachother could give.In over our heads we argued & tried to get counseling.Poverty & lack of medical left Marty still trying to self-medicate.That always got him in some kind of mess.The day he got in trouble he had rescued two other kids,a hero.Cops even witnessed it.Yet,someone else took advantage of his kindness for weakness to save their our hyde.the irony of it is ,if Marty had not went to jail,he would not have found out how sick he really had become.He studied & tried to get the best treatment,but they messed up,and it killed him. Marty was expendable to them but not to us and not to the Lord,ever.He died far too young.But just KNOW he had grown and had made peace and forgave those who he needed too.And asked forgiveness and rededicated his life BACK to the Lord.His body died but his spirit still lives! My duty out of love for the Lord and My sweet Marty,was to love & support him,not just love letters but also minister the truth of the scriptures,minus false doctrine.He needed to be spiritually prepared to pass on.Even though I didn't realize or except maybe the fact that he was dying,I knew in my spirit and heart,I would for some reason, be on my own,from now on...The Lord helped Marty by His Holy Spirit and through the prison minisrty,other outside ministeries,and myself to help make sure those needs WERE met before he died.Now theres another job to do,to give Glory to the Lord and to honor Martys memory. I pray the Father,help us,that we will bring glory to God and help to others,in prison;guilty or not,especially believers,that are lost,afraid,sick and or facing death.I ask this in Yahshua ha mashiayahkhs/Jesus Christ of Nazareths Name,by the power of the Holy Spirit,Please,help us get the job done,Abba Father.Thy Kingdom Come,Thy Will Be Done On Earth As It IS In Heaven.Thank You,YAHWEH,for letting me share Marty's last years...with him,together and apart.We'll always be united forever.Thank you for mercy grace & for forgiveness and the healing you brought to our relationship and lives.I'm so grateful to have been loved by such a wonderful man.
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Author: Michelle D.Gowin(Addington)
Date: March 7, 2010